When all else is falling apart

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I can control what I eat.  Today I had filled out my journal before my day fell apart before my eyes.  I won’t go into details, but I had a most unpleasant interchange with my son this afternoon.  I am so tired of always being strong.  Some days I just need to fall apart, but that is now allowed it seems.  I am holding on my the skin of my teeth right now.  He really scared me this afternoon, and I think that was his intention.  Some days I feel I am being manipulated, but I also realize that he is sick, and he is desperate right now and I am all he has left.  In my current state, that is not very much.

But we made it.  We also got our ailing heat pump repaired and a new programmable thermostat installed.  So life is good — right?

Don is driving himself to an all day class tomorrow and must leave around 6:30 a.m.  That means I will have another long day spent on pins and needles until he returns.   I am ready for this week to be over and it’s just started.

Today was mild and sunny and would have been a perfect day for some outdoor exercise, but our time was consumed with the repairman and my two hour phone conversation.  Oh my aching ear!

Monday, February 06, 2012

Morning
Green Smoothie (Vanilla)
3
Subtotal 3
Midday
1  serving(s) Hillshire Farm Chicken Breast, Rotisserie Seasoned, Ultra Thin
1
1  cup(s) lettuce
0
1/2 cup(s) fresh tomato(es)
0
1/2 serving(s) Ken’s Light Options Honey Dijon Salad Dressing
1
1  serving(s) Tuscan Garden Real Bacon Bits (1 Tbsp)
1
1  serving(s) Joseph’s Flax, Oat Bran, Whole Wheat Lavash Bread
1
1  serving(s) Lesser Evil Potato Krinkle Sticks
3
1/2 small fresh apple(s)
0
1/4 serving(s) Trader Joe’s Peanut Flour
1
Subtotal 8
Evening
1  serving(s) Harvestland Chicken Italian Sausage
3
1  serving(s) Shredded Hash Browns
2
1  serving(s) Trader Joe’s Soft Multigrain Rustico Bread
2
1  serving(s) Steamed broccoli florets
0
2  tsp olive oil
2
2  tsp Whipped Light Butter
1
Subtotal 10
Anytime
Vitamuffin/Yogurt dessert
5
Subtotal 5
Food PointsPlus values total used 26
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0
Activity
No entries for activity.
Activity PointsPlus values earned 0

 

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Halftime treat

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I hope we feel celebratory at halftime. I am sort of afraid after hearing all the hype about how great the Giants are.  Sometimes I find the national media a bit biased.  I guess we will see how much of it is hype and how much is fact later on tonight.

I was doing good with my food until after we ate dinner and I realized it would be several hours before I could eat that halftime treat, so I ate my normal “dessert”.  I am seriously addicted to Vitamuffins and yogurt.

Cooked chicken breasts in the crockpot with some salsa and Alton Brown’s brown rice in the oven recipe, and nuked some frozen Italian green beans.  Yummy.

So now we are getting ready to watch the Super Bowl.  Don is so excited.  I am hoping it is a good game and I think the anticipation of eating my carrot cake cupcake (half of it, that is) will be incentive enough to keep me awake.

Sunday, February 05, 2012

Morning
1  serving(s) Silk Almondmilk, Unsweetened
1
1/2 small banana(s)
0
1/2 cup(s) unsweetened frozen blueberries
0
1  serving(s) Fiber One 80 Calories Honey Squares
2
Subtotal 3
Midday
1  medium Hard cooked and peeled eggs
1
1  serving(s) Plumrose Ham, Baked, Premium, Deli Sliced
1
1  serving(s) Joseph’s Flax, Oat Bran, Whole Wheat Lavash Bread
1
1  wedge(s) Light Creamy Swiss Original Flavor
1
15  item(s) Scoops tortilla chips
3
side salad
2
Subtotal 9
Evening
1/2 cup(s) Cut Italian Beans
0
1  Tbsp Whipped Light Butter
1
1  serving(s) Trader Joe’s Soft Multigrain Rustico Bread
2
1/2 cup(s) cooked brown rice
3
1  Crockpot Salsa Chicken
4
Subtotal 10
Anytime
1/2 item(s) Cookies & Desserts Carrot Cake Cupcake
4
Vitamuffin/Yogurt dessert
5
Subtotal 9
Food PointsPlus values total used 31
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0
Activity
No entries for activity.
Activity PointsPlus values earned 0

 

 

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Strange sights

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Those are two suits of armor laying in the back of the pickup truck   :lol:  The things that you see when you walk around this neighborhoos.   :lol:

I’ve been around and tracking all week except for yesterday when I did not fall off the wagon, but I jumped off it.  My mental fatigue finally caught up to me, and I just wanted to go and try to make myself feel better by eating.  Did that work?  Heck no, and last night as I lay in bed with indigestion I wondered when I will ever learn.

Back on track today and I thought I’d done pretty good until I remembered the sushi I had with dinner.  Still not bad, and I will sleep so much better tonight.

I bought salmon at Wegman’s in one of their Club Packs. There were six pieces of salmon in the bag. It is delicious. I quit buying salmon at BJ’s because it became too expensive. So this was a nice treat! And a meal with no bread or potatoes. That is so light and refreshing, too.

Over my target, but a good day. And we even got in a walk. I was freezing at first, but by the time we were almost done I’d warmed up.

Tomorrow is a big day here. Go Pats!

Saturday, February 04, 2012

Morning
1/2 cup(s) unsweetened frozen blueberries
0
1/2 small banana(s)
0
1  serving(s) BetterOats – Maple & BrownSugar multigrain hot cereal
4
Subtotal 4
Midday
1  serving(s) Joseph’s Flax, Oat Bran, Whole Wheat Lavash Bread
1
1  wedge(s) Light Creamy Swiss Original Flavor Laughing Cow Cheese
1
1  serving(s) PopCorner corn chips
3
1  serving(s) Plumrose Ham, Baked, Premium, Deli Sliced
1
1  Minestrone
2
Subtotal 8
Evening
1  serving(s) Wegman’s Salmon Filet
6
1  cup(s) lettuce
0
1  cup(s) fresh spinach
0
1/2 cup(s) fresh tomato(es)
0
1  medium Hard cooked and peeled eggs
1
1  serving(s) Bolthouse Farms Yogurt Dressing, Creamy, Chunky Blue Cheese
2
3  piece(s) nori maki sushi
2
3  piece(s) maki sushi
2
Subtotal 13
Anytime
Vitamuffin/Yogurt dessert
5
Subtotal 5
Food PointsPlus values total used 30
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0
Activity
48 min Walking (>3.0 mph [20 min mile] and <5.0 mph [12 min mile] on level surface)
3
Activity PointsPlus values earned 3

 

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Toshiba sucks!

I am not a food photographer because the picture in the recipe looks so much better than mine, BUT this was a delicious sandwich.  But I ate too much bread today, and ran short on my points.   It was all good food though, so no regrets!  Dinner was cabbage and eggs – the 1 tablespoon of real butter makes this dish!

Now my laptop is giving me headaches.  It is a relatively NEW, less than 6 months old, replacement for my odl HP that I though had died.  It turned out that the HP is alive and well, and aside from the fact that it overheats terribly, it’s a more dependable machine than this piece of junk.

I should have just bought a Mac, but I was trying to save a dime.  This computer, however, was not a low priced model, so I did expect it to work longer than it has.  I just got (of all things) a blue screen of death.  And I regularly have to reboot the machine because the keyboard goes totally nuts.

I think it may still be under warranty, so I may see what I can do to get it repaired.  I did not buy a Best Buy extended warranty plan though, so I’m likely out of luck.

Tomorrow is my son’s appointment with the new neurologist.  He had a rough few days, finding out this weekend that his ex, who he still considers his wife, has had a couple of dates.  This about sent him over the edge, and there is nothing a mother can do to make this better.  I know he can work through it, but in the meantime he is suffering from a broken heart.   :heart:  And still nothing from the job interviews.

No exercise today, except for some tough mental fatigue.  And I chose my word of the day for The Daily Challenge as “stressless”.  Must have jinxed myself, because it’s been anything but.   :sad:

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Morning
Green Smoothie (Vanilla)
3
Subtotal 3
Midday
1  medium Hard cooked and peeled eggs
1
1/2 serving(s) Ken’s Light Options Honey Dijon Salad Dressing
1
1  serving(s) Country Kitchen Bread, Oatmeal
2
1  serving(s) Sesmark Multigrain Chips
3
1  serving(s) Trader Joe’s Horseradish Hummus
1
1  cup(s) lettuce
0
2  tsp Natural Buttery Spread Margarine
2
1/2 cup(s) fresh tomato(es)
0
Subtotal 10
Evening
1  serving(s) Trader Joe’s Soft Multigrain Rustico Bread
2
1  serving(s) Oscar Mayer Bacon, Fully Cooked, Thick Cut
2
1  Roasted Cabbage with Eggs
8
Subtotal 12
Anytime
Vitamuffin/Yogurt dessert
5
Subtotal 5
Food PointsPlus values total used 30
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0
Activity
No entries for activity.
Activity PointsPlus values earned 0

 

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Last Monday in January

Time is flying here.  First month of 2012 is almost behind us.  Yesterday I got some more wonderful lean hamburger from Trader Joe’s.  So we had a steak and potatoes dinner.   Well it was hamburger steak, who can afford the real deal anymore?  I am shocked at the price of meat these days.  It makes it very tempting to think of going back to a vegetarian/vegan diet.  I think we’ll wait until winter is over, since we don’t exactly have a lot of local fresh fruits and vegetables during this time of the year.

I did make the most delicious salad with lunch today.  And my vegetable soup was excellent, too.  Now if I can only remember what I did for when I make soup next.   :lol:

Jan asked if I was getting ready to quit using Picasa, and I’m not.  It’s just that I’ve been so inconsistent about how I store my pictures there and I’ve broken so many links by moving or deleting pictures, that from now on I want to host all my blog pictures right here.  I have successfully fixed all my broken links and moved all the pictures that I had just linked to to Picasa Web for, so I can delete, move, rearrange my Picasa Web Albums now without breaking anything.

I did not sleep well last night at all, so I am hoping to remedy that tonight.  And then I told my boss and colleagues at work that I’d come into the office on Wednesday.  One of the gals is rearranging her usual day to work from home so that she can be there, so I can’t just not show up.  I had checked and our weather on Wednesday is supposed to be warm(er) so I’ll drive over.  That means that tomorrow night I probably won’t sleep well either since I’ll be afraid of oversleeping on Wednesday morning.  It’s always something!

I attempted to do a Walk Away The Pounds DVD today.  I got most of the way through it, until the phone rang.  I certainly could not continue walking with Leslie and talking on the phone, so I didn’t finish.  But at least I got in some movement.  Today was cold and very windy.  Maybe tomorrow will be warm(er) and I will walk outside with Don.

Monday, January 30, 2012

Morning
Green Smoothie (Vanilla)
3
Subtotal 3
Midday
1  medium Hard cooked and peeled eggs
1
1  serving(s) Ryvita Original Rye Crispbread
1
1  serving(s) Trader Joe’s Horseradish Hummus
1
1  serving(s) Tuscan Garden Real Bacon Bits (1 Tbsp)
1
1/2 small fresh apple(s)
0
1/4 serving(s) Peter Pan Whipped Peanut Butter
1
1  Minestrone
2
side salad
2
Subtotal 9
Evening
1  serving(s) trader joe’s ground beef (I patty)
3
1  medium plain baked potato(es)
4
1  serving(s) Country Kitchen Bread, Oatmeal
2
1  Oven Roasted Green Beans
1
Subtotal 10
Anytime
Vitamuffin/Yogurt dessert
5
Subtotal 5
Food PointsPlus values total used 27
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0
Activity
Get Up & Get Started (Walk Away The Pounds)
2
Activity PointsPlus values earned 2

 

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Shopping Sunday

Last stop of the day was at Trader Joe’s and being in no mood to come home and unload the car AND cook, I grabbed one of these pizzas.  It was actually good, although it said their were three servings, we made it into two.  The finished product looked almost the same as the picture on the box, too.  It was great considering the fact that it was dairy-free, too.  No cheese!

We went to BJ’s first and stocked up on a lot of bulk items – paper towels, and cat food, and enough stuff to fill the back end of my little hatchback.  When we left there I asked Don where we should head next and his idea was to go for some frozen yogurt.  So on a day that was just barely above freezing, we were eating frozen yogurt   :lol:  The sun was shining, so it really didn’t feel like it was that cold out.

Then it was off to Trader Joe’s!  I got the nicest surprise on our way home.  I looked at the clock and saw it was 4:30 yet the sun was still bright and it was not “night” yet.  The days are really getting longer!   :w00t:

Not a perfect day today, but not bad either.  I got my exercise walking and hauling loads of groceries in from the car.  I really should have worn my Fitbit to see how many steps I actually got.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Morning
1  serving(s) So Delicious Unsweetened Coconut Milk
1
1/2 small banana(s)
0
1/2 cup(s) unsweetened frozen blueberries
0
1  serving(s) Fiber One 80 Calories Honey Squares
2
Subtotal 3
Midday
2  serving(s) Ryvita Original Rye Crispbread
3
1  serving(s) Cedar’s Garden Vegetable Hommus
2
1  Vegan Lentil Chili with Roasted Red Peppers
5
side salad
2
Subtotal 12
Evening
1 1/2 serving(s) Trader Joe’s roasted vegetable pizzas
9
Subtotal 9
Anytime
YoWay yogurt – Quick-added food
6
Subtotal 6
Food PointsPlus values total used 30
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0

 

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3.2 ounces

Point two does not sound like a lot, but I pulled out a stick of butter and marked what that .2 pound or 3.2 ounces really looks like. When I stepped on the scale today I was UP 3.2 ounces from last week.  What did I do to deserve this?  Well I guess my lack of exercise came back to haunt me because my food was tracked and I was well within  my range.  I used 10 of my weekly points though, and with no exercise, that is good for a maintain or small gain I suppose.

I must change that next week.  Today we had some mild temperatures, so when we got home from our “gathering”, we went on a nice brisk walk.  It felt good.  I find myself dreading it so much, but about halfway through I am always so happy I did it.

We picked up sushi at Price Chopper.  We split this and then we each had a Spring Roll (and a piece of Pepperoni Pizza – what a combination LOL)

I’m short on water and it’s late.  I was going to weigh in the morning but I am rethinking that after eating that soy sauce with the sushi.  No matter what the scale says, I will continue to eat the same.  I am a bit strange in that if I lose on the scale, it makes me more determined than ever to lose again.  So I don’t  “celebrate” a good weigh in. But if I show a gain, I sometimes think “what’s the use”.  I mainly just think it though. I know that no food is worth feeling sick to my stomach.  I’ve been there and done that way too many times in the past.

So on to another week of good eating and adding in some exercise.  I’ve said that every week, but I mean it now.  :unsure:

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Morning
1  serving(s) 365 Ricemilk
1
1  serving(s) Fiber One 80 Calories Honey Squares
2
1/2 small banana(s)
0
1/2 cup(s) unsweetened frozen blueberries
0
Subtotal 3
Midday
1  cup(s) shredded or chopped butterhead lettuce, includes boston & bibb types
0
1  serving(s) George’s Bakery Pita (1/2)
1
1  serving(s) Oscar Mayer Delifresh Oven Roasted Turkey Breast
1
2  tsp reduced-calorie mayonnaise
1
1  serving(s) Lays Light Original Potato Chips
2
Subtotal 5
Evening
4  piece(s) sake (fresh salmon) nigiri sushi
3
1  item(s) vietnamese spring roll(s)
2
1  serving(s) Price Chopper Pepperoni Pizza
10
2  piece(s) maguro nigiri sushi
1
Subtotal 16
Anytime
Vitamuffin/Yogurt dessert
5
Subtotal 5
Food PointsPlus values total used 29
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0
Activity
35 min Walking, uphill (3.0 mph – 3.9 mph, uphill)
2
Activity PointsPlus values earned 2
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Cleaning up around here

I’ve been wanting to clean up this blog for some time.  I knew there were probably broken links and images, but I had not idea how bad it was.  Interestingly enough, there are 1,087 posts and there were hundreds of broken links.  I have them whittled down to only 11 and tomorrow I plan on finishing that task.

I also want to remove all the links to images I have stored online at Picasa, and upload them into the blog.  Then I can delete the pictures from Picasa.  I have hundreds of images stored there, but I don’t want to delete them until I make sure I am not deleting an image I have linked from the blog.  It’s not a big deal, but my OCD demands that I fix it all  :lol:

Thank goodness it is Friday.  I am ready for the weekend and some rest.  I also am ready for some sunshine, but I don’t think that is in our near future.

Eating has been pretty good this week (except for those darned peanut butter cookies– they are almost gone!).  Tomorrow I weigh.  I’ve stayed off the scales all week long, so it will be a big surprise, and I hope it’s a good one.

I made this recipe today and it’s excellent!  Kalyn always has good recipes.  The recipe is Vegan Lentil Chili with Roasted Red Peppers, Olives, and Green Onions BUT I left out the olives since Don does not like them.  I think they would have made it even better.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Morning
Green Smoothie (Vanilla)
3
Subtotal 3
Midday
1  serving(s) Trader Joe’s Lite Shredded 3 Cheese Blend (1/4 cup)
2
1  package(s) Oyster Crackers
2
1  Vegan Lentil Chili with Roasted Red Peppers
5
Subtotal 9
Evening
1/2 cup(s) cooked potato(es), red or white
2
3  oz cooked lean and trimmed beef rump roast
4
1  serving(s) Country Kitchen Bread, Oatmeal
2
1/2 cup(s) canned spinach
0
Subtotal 8
Anytime
Aldi Peanut Butter cookie – Quick-added food
4
Vitamuffin/Yogurt dessert
5
Subtotal 9
Food PointsPlus values total used 29
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0
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Missing in action

Did you miss me?Seriously, I’m still around.  Still eating the same boring food.  Still trying to shed a pesky pound or two.  Nothing much has changed, so I have nothing much to say.  But I do miss posting and I must make it a habit to do so.  I guess I’ve just taken a week off.

No good news yet for my son.  He is waiting on test results for his rash, and has had one job interview this week, with another scheduled for tomorrow.

It’s hard to believe tomorrow is Friday, but I need a weekend! AND I need to finish up those evil peanut butter cookies and not buy any more!   :lol:

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Morning
Green Smoothie (Vanilla)
3
Subtotal 3
Midday
1  serving(s) Lays Light Original Potato Chips
2
1 serving(s) Oscar Mayer Ham, Shaved
1
1/2 serving(s) Joseph’s Pita Bread, Flax, Oat Bran & Whole Wheat Flour
1
1  serving(s) Wegmans Cheese Product, Non Fat Pasteurized Process, Swiss, White Slices
1
side salad
2
Subtotal 7
Evening
1  serving(s) Wegmans Southern Blend Peas
2
1  serving(s) Country Kitchen Bread, Oatmeal
2
1/2 serving(s) Trader Joe’s organic brown rice
2
1  Balsamic Chicken Thighs
3
Subtotal 9
Anytime
Aldi Peanut Butter cookie – Quick-added food
4
Vitamuffin/Yogurt dessert
5
Subtotal 9
Food PointsPlus values total used 28
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0
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Friday! I’m glad to see you!

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I wish my dinner had looked that good!  I was curious about some very cheap “filets” at Aldi, but they were just poor imitations of a real filet mignon.  Since I really messed up my day by eating a peanut butter cookie BEFORE I’d figured the points on it, our dinner was the “beef” with some braised greens.  It was at least a good fix for our iron for the day.

I’m happy it’s Friday.  My son has his children for the weekend.  That always keeps him happy (until Sunday late when he has to let them go back with their mother), and keeps me from worrying too much about him.  He went to a job fair today that was, in his words, about as much like a job fair as the coin operated merry-go-round in front of Kroger is like Disneyworld.  The company he had specifically wanted to apply with had pulled out.  He said he asked the woman who was in charge of the fair, if the company had furnished a fax number when they had signed up for the fair, and she said they had.  He said he handed her his resume and asked her if she’d fax it over to them. And he said she with a big smile did just that.

Snowed last night and supposed to snow all day tomorrow.  I ran out to the store late today, so we really can stay in and just veg all weekend long.

Friday, January 20, 2012

Morning
Green Smoothie (Vanilla)
3
Subtotal 3
Midday
1/2 serving(s) Oscar Mayer Ham, Virginia Brand, Shaved
1
1  serving(s) Wegmans Cheese Product, Non Fat Pasteurized Process, Swiss, White Slices
1
1/2 serving(s) Joseph’s Pita Bread, Flax, Oat Bran & Whole Wheat Flour
1
1  serving(s) Cape Cod 40% Reduced Fat Potato Chips (.75 oz.)
3
side salad
2
Subtotal 8
Evening
Beef filet (Aldi) – Quick-added food
6
1  cup(s) cooked Swiss chard
0
1/2 serving(s) Country Kitchen Bread, Oatmeal
1
Subtotal 7
Anytime
Aldi’s Peanut Butter Cookie – Quick-added food
4
Vitamuffin/Yogurt dessert
5
Subtotal 9
Food PointsPlus values total used 27
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0
Activity
No entries for activity.
Activity PointsPlus values earned 0
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